Today's boring..there wasn't much to do..woke up at 10 plus then went to use com..
being at cousin's house so relaxing. how i wish this was my own home
just me in this house no one bothering me
letting me do what i want to do
such bliss..
anyways i am seriously bored.
tomorrow's back to school
wtf..doing homework.
getting addicted to BEP's MISSING YOU awesome song (:
mum just called maybe tomorrow try to go to school.
tell teacher i cant go to school on tuesday.
I dont know why i kinda feel lost.
as in really lost.
was at the wake again
Zac came talked to me..
Oli should be coming later.
i feel bad hurting Zac with how i was confessing that i wasn't feeling helped.
"I'M SORRY!"
but its the truth.
I'm somehow feeling very tired.
everyday's just a new beginning where more things starts building up.
Wonders when's the day i'll crack.
Its not something i can predict.
it gets so tiring at times i dont know what to do and i dont feel anything anymore.
How many people i know can understand.
Hmm..Is love always so tiring and hurtful?
Looks like I've not benefiting from anything just losing
Losing...
Losing
and more losing.
seems like i'm draining my ownself and then crack..
I'm waiting till the day i can see myself when i crack..
till nothing's left of me
my own original me
just somebody known by name and not by personality
in fact i dont think i have one
it was thrashed long ago.
just that it wasn't made it known
even i dint know.
i found out..
my life's meaningless.
Why oh why.
i can't feel people.
and i'm sorry about that,
it wasn't intentional
I haven asked my mum whether i can join the O school for dancing.I'm tempted to ask
i wanna learn
why is asking so difficult
its killing me inside.
AHHHH fustrating
anyways im gonna watch some show
blog another time
ANOTHER MEMORY LEFT BEHIND..
Joanna
CHASED @ 02:40
woke up at 2 plus - whoa thats late then later ate breakfast and was back to playing.after a while i went to cook 3 eggs ( gosh i might die from high cholesterol .______. ) then uncle cook some spaghetti for us (: yays it was awesome ! then later went back to playing (: at around 5 plus went to queenstown for the funeral and then saw my aunt.looked different and kinda weird.but they stuffed some shit into her.anyways no matter what she will always be my beloved aunt a pretty awesome lady that has made an impact in our lives then we ate serve and serve and serve talked a while with my cousin.Dad was somehow over-paranoid.many church people came. LOL i dint know she was so popular in church.some prayed for my cousin while others talked.we spent like 5 hours there.just serving and serving.i went to church later to find cell leaders.Zac and Amber came but Oli dint should be coming today ( its already coming to 3 in the morning. ) later..will call her.Talked like super a lot to Zac.dont wanna say contents but anyways today is practically serving.tired gonna sleep now :O * YAWNS
ANOTHER MEMORY LEFT BEHIND..
Joanna
Friday, 9 April 2010
@ 21:26
Hmmmm..today's post shall be quite short.i wont say much.School on a Friday's sucks cause its a lot of using-brain-to-think-classes.Pon science remedial yesterday and went out with Surekha and Sherman.went to Jurong Point had Pizza for "lunch" then i told them i wanted to see cute guy so they follow me to the shop (shhh its secret (: ) then i think we made quite a scene the cute guy saw but i cant really recognise him at first then after i go into the shop then i realised AHH HE SO CCUUTTEE ! ! ! ! ! ~ heh heh then today,a Friday Holy asked us to go out if we dint attend the remedial so i went out gave some excuse then i zao back in something happened in the afternoon dont wish to say it but im kinda down about it maybe some knows but anyways i having an unexpected sleepover at cousins.Goanna stop now and get my free DOUCLE CHOCOLATE FRAPPE (: WAKA HO HO !
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came back home met some weirdo downstairs heck.then we started camwhoring and my cousin keep taking me ._. haha i also zi pai (: lol.we were bored. we danced to some Jap song also its a retarded dance.but it was fun.talked to another cousin on msn had a video conference with him ah hahahahaha! okay that's it enough its 3 in the morning.
tempted right ..?
too bad..?
I'm having it (:
okay byes
ANOTHER MEMORY LEFT BEHIND..
Joanna
Thursday, 8 April 2010
ARGH STUPID DAY .. ): @ 00:27
I have no idea what's wrong with today man... frustrating ._. i ended school early.and i dint stay back for napfa cause i injured my toe ): hurts bad .. then later i went back home.the minute i reach home took a bath and went out to JP buy my so called lunch and some stuff from popular.the weirdest thing is when i reach home.. i dint realize my room window wasn't open and then my dad came home and started shouting at me for not opening the gad damned windows.and i was like WTF..? i dint even enter my room can and even if i did..it was only for a short while and he started nagging somemore.then i was studying for my sci just now and mum said that i dont know when to stop..? WTF?!?!?! i'm not tired to say the least and she said that i should know when i needed to sleep..pissed -.- gosh..what's the logic behind man..okay those were just ranting..
had music at IT room again..logged into facebook as usual.was checking some notification then it appeared on my friend's profile page and shauna saw and started saying he's hot. TWICE ~! oh god she's like some serious stalker she says that a guy is hot once he looks cute or have abs..sicko ._. and she says i gotta stop looking and admiring people's legs looks who's talking lol.and another thing why do *people like to use a phrase of another language out of the blue like i can be talking in english and in 1 moment woosh i'm in another language for like 1 sentence only.and please to that *person..its kinda obvious you used google translate..? common man you dont even learn the language and with some help you claimed you have you really think you can make such a long sentence..? or was your claimed help google trainslate itself..? lol i seriously think you're like trying to gain attention..blogging about your *er hem and when people read they feel bad..you like people to feel that way..? Oh i dint know.whatever.waste of my time saying that.
Its been a week i guess and my toe's still swollen .. ! i wanna cry its hurting shitting much and there's a lot of pus and blood.i cant sqeeze it cause firstly its pain and secondly nothing's coming out.hais better faster heal i dont wanna lie in that white bed.
Today's pretty unlucky i must say..Firstly in the morning i kinda like never mess up my fringe so my *_______ was pretty obvious.then it was attendence and as usual the 2 irritating prefects started walking down that holy lane..so when the walked towards me again as usual the sec 3 one will look at me as if im some criminal and then today she stared.and stared and stared and ....................you know what i mean and suddenly she ask "..YOU _____ ______ hair right..?" and i was like "..yeah..?" and she said "PIN UP YOUR FRINGE !" and i question mark my fringe kinda short already so i like told her in her face "its so short pin what shit sia..? wait till its longer then i pin everything up la~" then she walked to the back and within less then 3 min *HOLY walked to me and asked me to stand up so like she look at me and asked the same question so she ask me to get it back to normal by tomorrow and i was like "..???? NO WAY MAN ! (think aloud) then i said "..huh..can like next week or something how can by today..?"so she stonned for a moment and she said by next mon so i needa find spray..GOSH so mah fun and my $7 is gonna fly away just because of that few days im going to use it..sian.cant they just let it go since its already there?? hai yo..hate this year prefects.
so that's about all..i think i've complain enough LOL.
that's all byes
ANOTHER MEMORY LEFT BEHIND..
Joanna
Tuesday, 6 April 2010
@ 21:22
Long time since i post eh ..? so monday meet some friends i think it was plain awkward silence ._.
so i was eating like effing KFC again. GAWD why is it always the same food .. anyways thats not the point firstly HAPPY EASTER FRIDAY / GOOD FRIDAY (: so it was originally not a really good one cause there was alot of homework basically..then later in turned out to be an awesome friday cause i planted a bomb in my mama'a pocket (: bought yet another skinnies (red) 2 skinny cut bermudas a short and a backpack plus my headphones WOO HOO i found the one i wanted but dam ex so dropped the idea. anyways that's about it.
ANOTHER MEMORY LEFT BEHIND..
Joanna
